July 2010
5 posts
i love(d) him…
i remember when the cutting started; it wasn’t over you, though, at least not yet. i’d lost my friend jee due to sheer stupidity and misunderstandings, but you were in the process of losing your friend, too. we would soon need one anothers’ company in order to create the music that served as a distraction from the pain we were inflicting upon our arms and...
i love him…
i can feel the “love” part of this fade to past tense as i write this; i can’t recall ever feeling this strongly about him.
fast forward to december of 2008. i’d tried to slowly let my feelings for you slide, but i couldn’t. i texted you to meet me because i wanted to tell you i had liked you. i saw you at the tree in front of my dorm, in the...
i love him…
i remember the look in your eyes when i told you i had a boyfriend. “you have a boyfriend?” you said incredulously, your mouth twisting ever so slightly because you couldn’t hide your disgust and confusion and annoyance. to this day, i wonder if it would’ve been any different had i not had a boyfriend. my boyfriend had the annoying tendency to cling to...
i love him…
i remember wanting you to give me that present that you promised me in hartford. i would pester you in our math class relentlessly as i attempted to flirt with you nonchalantly. whoops. it was when i realized that catching your eye as you walked into our math classroom caused my heart to skip 4 consecutive beats that i realized the problem. i could feel it starting, the growth...
i love him…
i remember the day when we first met, when we really met. we were merely freshmen, completely new to high school (and myself being confused in this foreign setting of a connecticut private preparatory boarding school). however, with our being eager and friendly, we sought each other out quickly.
i snuck onto a bus going to hartford without permission the day i met you,...